I feel that i'm in my own fantasy world these few days, watched too much Phantom of Opera. hahaha =) I was brought closer to music each day and as I get my inspiration each new day. My path was brighten up again, I am going to show people that I can do well even when I have lots of things in hand. I am going to show people what I can do with my music with lots of feelings and expression. Currently I am learning and working on more piano pieces, gonna keep practicing and one day, I will be able to bring glory with my music. =) Really want to thank those who support, infocated and helped me!


"cultural mandate"

Another Mandane day in school, things goes very slowly this morning. On my way to school this morning, I met chek yeow at serangoon MRT station.

While walking to school, I remembered what Fifi posted at her facebook status this morning, which changed my thoughts at an impact.

"We shoulden't follow what our heart says, for our hearts are deceitful. Make the right decision and stick to it".

I realized that I had made alot of mistake, as in doing things wrongly. What I can say is that, I did'nt think and decide before requesting and asking things. Everything just pop out of my mind and I just shoot it out, thinking that others will be ok and agreeable. (If you had been talking to me recently, you might know.) I feel that my insecurity had irritated or disturbed some people through this. Came to realise that I have not thought of others when requesting or asking things, How to ask? How will the person feel when I make direct request?

I am going to change my buggy way of doing things, thinking and asking. I feel sorry for those who had tolerated it. Thanks for respecting me also. =) I feel that being faithful in the small things does need to be applied in this area of my life. Felt my emotions getting lighter now, this is definitely a lesson that had enabled me to grow.

I don't want to lose trust, friendship and relationship because of my lacks. Time for me to really really raise up and grow to a new level. =)

"Spirit makes man!"

Woke up at 5.15am today feeling happy, told myself that i'm going to start Academic Excellence, 25hours study rule already. Went to school as early as usual today, it's like the first time in my St Gabriel's life, reaching school soo early. Tried to play abit of "Requiem" in school this morning, still can't get the hold of it, But at least managed to play 12bars with problems.

School was quite funny and weird at the same time. Both of my form teachers were not in school because of MC. Mr Tuang came into class wearing a mask to prevent the spread of virus from the class. "I was like man! how cranky can the day go. xD". Everyone was so crazy today. Benedict is acting like he'd got infected by ADHD. hahaha. =) My perspective of school had changed after the exprience. School is definately not a fun place to be in, but this is where relationship and bonding are being built, other than typically to study.

Going to take blodness tomorrow to play piano to lead Vocal Warmups during Vocal Practice. Excited for Connect Group Meeting also. =)

Today was awesome, woke up quite late today but still managed to reach school on time. Had fun during PE, learnt how to spin a traditional top after several failures. Finally after many years, i'm able to play the charte. xD Right after PE was maths test. Felt so confident during the test, trying to us as much brains as possible. The last 2 periods before school end, I rushed through my half done lectora webpage. It's so important to go ahead of work when given assignments, if you want to leave class ontime. =)"The dendroids thing really turned my day alive, thanks to Genesis of a Genius.xD"

"Requiem For a Dream" is still "Requiem Sala"
tried it on the Piano in school this morning, hope i'll be able to play it soon.

met up with Miss Wong outside staffrom after school and talked on the way untill she alights from the MRT. Went to City Hall after that to get guitar strings and then went home.

Reach home, bang the keyboard for around an hour and sat down and slack since I Have nothing to do. Thought of alot of things while slacking, and realized that time went really really fast. Made a decision to treasure whatever time I have with whomever. If not the next thing I know is, I'm going to miss my friends in St Gabriel's.(Marked 17July2009) =)